A roll of fat and a lot of rage

That pretty much suns up the past 10 months. When I’m not cooking or eating or planning either, I am raging.

Rage at the Chinese for lying and thereby not containing the virus. And the next one will be worse.

Rage at the US president for failing his own people and the rest of the world. If not for him, that mighty nation could’ve led the response.

Rage at a world that was already too unequal and is now so much worse. No amount of Aid or government subsidies will fix this for a very long time.

Rage at people who ignored safety because they just don’t give a fuck. Really, that’s all it comes down to, they don’t care at all. Fighting regulations, no matter how stupid some are, does nothing but drag it all out.

Rage at willful ignorance that was always there but now has now been so blatantly exposed. Conspiracy theorists lead the pack with all their prejudiced followers.

Rage at people being forced to risk their lives for a minuscule social grant that is roughly equivalent to the middle-class price of a pizza and a salad. And yet, some still manage to feed themselves for a month with it, assuming they get their hands on it.

Rage at the audacity of our government for ignoring requests to adequately communicate with the people throughout the crisis. So much trust is lost now and the vaccine roll-out is as clear as mud.

Rage at the profiteering and corruption perpetrated throughout the world, because suddenly so much money was made available. This is not unique to one country.

Rage at those who are blind to all of the above.

Last week was hard. A sick friend trying to manage Covid at home was suddenly out of comms and it turned out he was rushed to hospital and was fighting for his life; two other friends survived but will struggle for a while; another one has had the virus since March – only now is Long Covid even a thing. Another friend tells me she lost five people in one day.

I know people who are reckless, uninformed, selfish, and who will not get sick or not very sick. Others, careful, fearful, knowledgeable, caring only for others, land up in hospital. As I type this someone I know, only through FB but whom i have grown to be very fond of, is in hospital struggling to breathe. He’s been so careful, so very very careful all these months, but contracted the virus at work because someone was not careful.

So many still don’t understand they could be asymptomatic, because we have no idea how many such people there are and it’s precisely why we should all be staying the fuck at home unless absolutely necessary.

I am starting to feel the weight of it all. The long-term effects on all of us will be studied and reported on for decades, and longer.

No one ever said the world was fair and I doubt very much that the meek will inherit a thing. The arseholes will take it all.

Sighhh … depressing post illustrated with a photo of sunset restio, taken several years ago on the edge of the Tanqua Karoo.

And …. a link to my crowdfunding platform wherein I have tried to raise enough funds to save my tourism minibus. Please have a look and see if you can help – many thanks!

Hullo 2021 !

I feel as if I’ve been dragged into 2021. Not quite kicking and screaming because I’m jolly grateful I made it, but more like sluggishly limply dragged along the floor, gathering up life’s detritus as I was swept along. I’ve brought all the crap from 2020, and before, with me.

There’s no such thing as a new leaf, a new beginning, a new anything, this week – it’s just a calendar date, not a cataclysmic event that changes everything overnight. Look at Covid – that didn’t happen overnight, it crept up on us. It will go away in just the same way, slowly. Until one day there are no more infections, no more masks, and the survivors look back and ask what the fuck was that about? Will we be ready for the next virus? Will any lessons be learned from this one? I doubt it. We’ve known this was coming and yet when it hit us, we were unprepared.

And now the pharmaceutical companies are screwing us over the vaccines because rich countries are outbidding each other. I have already heard the term ‘vaccine apartheid’. Canada has bought enough to vaccinate all its citizens five times over. The UK and US are totally screwing up their distribution process, despite their wealth and so-called first-world abilities. China and Russia have cheap unapproved versions. South Africa? Seems we’re going to manufacture for export and we can’t afford the 60 million shots we need. If we had not lost trillions during a preceding president’s terms, we would be in a better financial position. The current government is refusing to share its plan with us, assuming they have one. Our President creates Instagram photo opps by jogging with the rich but refuses serious interviews.

And on that cheerful note, here we are January 3. The weather in Cape Town is hot and sunny. The dogs are lazy yet dying for a run on the beach or green belt which is not possible because those places are forbidden. I am bored and unable to concentrate on anything for very long, so reading is not as rewarding as it could be, same for Netflix which has nothing new. This is when I think maybe owning a tv set would be good so I could switch it on and just stare mindlessly.

The beady eye from Vida and a strange little miniature sunflower that I am growing. I say strange because I had no idea it would be so small.

I have not earned any income for almost a year as tourism has ground to a halt. One of the most difficult things I’ve ever done was to set up a crowdfunding campaign to try raise enough money to pay off my touring vehicle before the bank could repossess it. I’ve had an excellent response, mainly from ex clients. Here is the link in case anyone wants to chip in a few dollars. Many, many thanks in advance.


A note to all accidental visitors:

I am not a photographer and do not claim to have any particular skills whatsoever in that department. I have enormous respect for those who can see the potential in a scene and can create a great photo. Good photography is an art, in my opinion.

I am just a happy snapper, I have no special lenses or accessories, my camera is very simple and it's usually best to leave the setting on auto.

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